Don’t worry, I’m OK. I had the intention of vlogging today. It put me in a kinda bad place, so I’ve talked about THAT instead. Vlogging about not being able to vlog?
Zero production values for this episode. Logos and stuff seemed inappropriate.
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60: I feel vulnerable vlogging – van life

i think i know what you are going through… i wish i had some overwhelmingly awesome advice on how to deal with it but all i can say is that you are coping much better than i am… i was expecting, with time, that i would go back to being myself… but what i have found is that i have been changed forever and i dont like the new me… the struggle is trying to re identify myself with motivation and positive outlook on life… i have not found that motivation that says oh ya this is why im here… just know that you are not alone in the struggle and that there are people who feel just as you do even though they try to hide it… sometimes i think that a complete reset of the human race is in order and we should try to do better next time… either way good vibes sent your way!
"Strong men cry too" the Big Lobowski
Hey Mevi, today just wasn't your day to vlog, it happens. Just keep in mind what you've gone through and also the changes that have happened in your life of recent and know that you're doing remarkably well. Don't worry about pleasing others, do the vlogs to please yourself and make it your entertainment too.
Hope ur ok, you’re doing great x
I started to watch your channel for help, tips and ideas on how to do my own van. The more I watch I realise that I'm watching your channel for help tips and ideas on how to live a more fulfilling life. Please keep doing what you are doing. Some of us are still at the watching Youtube all day stage. Parking and free electric hook up available in Nottingham if your up this way
I suffer ptsd depression on a high one minit on the floor the next it's natural mate I understand donny
Only share what you want to share, I see so many you tubers feeling under pressure to post certain types of videos and certain amounts of videos, it’s just too pressured, I’ve felt it myself when I’ve not made enough videos, the best videos are the ones that you want to make, so if you feeling like sharing then do it if you don’t then sit back and think why you don’t want to and go from there, personally I question everything but sometimes overthinking can block your expressions, please don’t worry about what people might think, or say, some people have a lot to say about your life without ever having been in your shoes so they have no idea when they open their mouths, concentrate on what you think 🙂 keep being you on your journey
Highs and lows Mevi, this is what I worry about in my ability to withdraw from, 'life', Van life would possibly make me more reclusive. "Chin up old chap"
I have these days a lot. I do not appear much in my videos for that very reason.
We are all programmed from birth to care about stuff we shouldn't, and not care about stuff we should. if any of that changes along our journey, then massive Psychological and Emotional inner conflict surfaces. There is nowhere to fit that change or channel the conflict because its in direct competition to our cultural existence. I cope with it by not caring about it anymore. Or more accurately, deciding what or who is important to me along the way, then not caring about the rest. If you cant change what's effecting you, then look at changing how it effects you. If you think someone is judging you about anything, ask yourself, 'how important is this person to me'?
I have spent half an hour trying to think of something deep and meaningful to say in response to your vlog, and this is all I could come up with: Trees give me pure thoughts…. they are to be avoided at all costs! Avoid cows as well… they pump out methane and can trample you to death. Always make sure you have cream cheese in the van for when you see cats. I hope that helps :- ) :- )
do what makes you happy bud ….isnt that what you jorney is about ?
Only share what you feel comfortable with Mevi! Never feel like you have to go into anything you aren’t happy in sharing, We all respect that.
Honesty is the best Policy……even with a shit day an emotional statement you still made us Smile.. Have a better day today and Keep Living the Dream x
Your doing fine mate, take care
Every single online content creator I've managed has gone through the same sequence of events. Vlogging is difficult, damn near impossible for some people yet you're able to push past 60 videos and still have the strength to show vulnerability to your audience. On top of all of that, you do it on a mobile phone. You are an amazing human being.
Shock, horror … you're totally human! xxx
Man, winging it is the only way to do it. We usually just talk about what ideas we want to put out and what we want to accomplish with each video, prior to filming. Other than that, no script, etc. which is obvious given the several mess ups on our videos haha. Keep your head up man!
Some days vlog some days don’t , today was one of those don’t days. this Chanel is genuine and an inspiration the point I’m badly making is carry on being you and if it’s not right today well it doesn’t matter , your honesty is what we like and your vlogs are top draw.
You are an inspiration
I totally get the vulnerability thing. It's the reason why I don't Vlog myself. I don't want my whole life being picked over by people. Thing is, why are YOU doing it? If it's subscribers you're after, then you have to get yourself right with what you do and keep coming up with bigger and better. If you're just doing it as a kind of hobby and maybe you interest some like minded people, then carry on as you are and reveal only what YOU want to reveal, it's your channel, not ours. Oh Yeh….FIRST!! 🙂